Wednesday's Woes

Hi. It’s me again ... We have a half an hour and having too much trouble concentrating to do school reading like we should be. We have 17 pages left to read and a paper to write before midnight tonight. We also have a Dr. M. Appointment tonight and tomorrow night both at 4:30 pm. He has been gone for a week or a little more. We’ve had a tough last twelve hours.

Our friend came over and one thing over another ... He took us through the couple months of mail that we’ve stored up. A week or two we paid the double payment on the bills we knew about over the computer, so that’s not too bad, but it turns out through a quick run through of stuff we have jury duty in six days, am in trouble with city ... cuz of city sticker, and because we haven’t taken care of emissions our license is revoked. Plus, we’re within a day or two of not having medicine. Should have taken care of that because to get 3 months requires an extra week or two. I’ve got good support for this between my couple of friends, Dr. And son, but I think everyone is kinda frustrated with us. If I get A’s in graduate school you would think we’d be able to open mail. :( There is some good stuff though too. We are working, going to school and therapy full time. We’ve lost 12 pounds with our diet buddy, did manage to pay some bills, house is pretty good, and dishes/clothes washed. And, we managed to get an appointment with younger son to take care of his school loan, though now it seems there is not enough money for gas or brunch. We’ve got $0 in our pocket, but our checking account says there is money enough in there to pay rent and last $450 in bills we’ve sent, but have not been cashed yet. That leaves us with $135 between medicine, gas, smokes, parking, and son. That’s not quite enough. Next check is supposed to be here next Monday or Tuesday. Maybe our one friend will see us over. BUT, there is little groceries and those problem things are going to take some cash too. Plus, I’m going to need telling sister I have to cancel state required meeting I was supposed to go to on the same day as jury duty. I wasn’t able to keep responsible parts out when our friend was helping go through the four bags of mail yesterday without crying. And, talked to our other friend this morning. We sent correspondence out and included Dr. M. And our oldest son. Our one friend has suggested we get help from a social worker with the bills and household things. We’ll talk to Dr. M. About thatthis afternoon. You’d figure if we could get A’s in graduate school, we could open the darn mail. :(

Ok, ok ... need to calm down here. Feel panicked. Turned on gentle music. At times like this we like to here Charlotte Church, and no, I don’t expect anyone to know who that is.

Kind of scared ... I don’t usually get in trouble with the law. And, although we’ve caught up in car insurance, some where hiding in all that hundreds of mail is probably not only a birthday card or two, but as well our current insurance card. Thinking if we were pulled over or checked by the local police at work, they would take away our car, or if stopped we’d be found unbuckled, without current insurance card, having no sticker, or license. Feeling pretty overwhelmed.

Ok, you. Get a grip on it. Gotta concentrate here. Maybe, we should take our shower and our medicine. Everything’s been done that could be done for this exact moment. Hmm, good thing is we arranged a guest speaker for tomorrow at work to speak to clients and staff and Friday is the center’s picnic. Most likely we won’t go, but no thinking group that day or staff meeting tomorrow. That should help. Ok, shower, medicine, get smokes, go to work, work through legal problems, get tonight’s homework in go to therapy, weigh-in and go to bed. Full day. We can do this, right? BREATHE!!!!!