I am thinking that “feelings” are a response to being aware or in recognition of our senses. We can hear a brilliant speaker and have the feelings of awe, or we can taste a perfect rice pudding and feel content. ">
Our senses remain conscious, although we may be unaware that we are being affected. Like when we snap at a child, peer, or lover because we feel tired, or we feel unattended. We forget to seek our needed solitude or ask nicely for a hug.
Our feelings are subjective. We hear others say, “That doesn’t make sense!” They haven’t had our same past experiences, or maybe we are not sharing his experience of being in the present.
It seems that our minds and bodies collect fields of information. "This is pain, or this is pleasure.” Or, “I’m attracted to this, or I’m repulsed by that.” Monkeys, mice and mankind all have common inclinations of seeking pleasure and avoiding pain, although what brings us each pleasure or pain may be different. Not all of us are cut out to leap from aircraft or bungee jump.
It helps us to understand "feelings," both at work and in our personal life(s). Seems a matter of survival. We have tendencies to disassociate from our feelings. Sometimes we will avoid unwieldly feelings that bring pleasure as well as pain. Maybe though it's time to be a little more accepting, alive.
Sometimes we feel guilt for being alive and well. Thinking this is a family of birth issue. We were more valued in our service to them, than for being our independent self(ves). We're feeling bad because of this sudden switch from joyous to unearthed. We sense younger parts and know we need to be caretaking.
We're ok, just following the lead of this particular feeling of happiness/guilt. It's important we share. Each day we're more sure and able.
3 comments:
This was a reality check for me, are you reading my mind,lol? I hope you feel better, if you want to talk im me, I'd love to talk to you. Thanks for sharing! siempre, Shasta
Never feel guilty about being alive, girl. Y'all are bright and shining stars in the Universe, each with your own set of distinct talents. You not only should be alive, but I, for one and I'm sure theres many more, are damn GLAD you're alive.
That Happy Chica,
Marcia Ellen
Thanks Shasta and Marcia Ellen for being here with this one. Think these kind of entries are hard to read because they feel a little more serious and more personal. We feel to stay real though, we need to write about these feelings and thoughts as well as the others. Maria Ellen, we'll take to heart your comment. Been thinking of it for a few days. No resolutions on the issue yet though ... Keep us in your prayers, love Corey
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