We started the morning without having coffee. We read journals and tried to understand them, then we slept 'til lunch, ate, then went back to sleep until about dinner. Again, we ate. Then it is now. It seems like the system has been somewhat down.
There is always the stress of work ... but, it's not Monday.
It seems, we have jumped from being a big fish in a small pond, to being a small fish in a big pond. The things that we'd seen as most important aren't the same as what other multiples see as most important. Or is it plurals? Not sure of the smallest of details. It is causing us to question ourselves. And with that doubt comes negative feelings of ourselves and our experiences. We have to stop this now! We need to be able to explore without submitting to irrational fears. We need to choose strength!
Our newest friend has said that, "it is interesting to see how we handle things from our perspective." Thanks Andy. This comment has helped quite a bit.
We seem to be working through another situation, in that Dear Heart has been out for good periods of time, especially today. We have known her to spend quite a bit of time on the couch sleeping. We also believe she is she is having difficulty leaving the house and the one eating our meals. Getting past the frustration of feeling so repressed, we need to best support and encourage her growth and understanding. We understand this directive may feel outdated to others in the multiple community, but it is where we are at. We're not quite sure why, though the saying, "A chain is only as strong as the weakest link" comes to mind.
The three things, work, new multiple community, and Dear Heart are a lot to be handling. But, we grow stronger each day and have good supports. Jamie ended the meeting with, "And, get the damn coffee!" To which the proper response is to <giggle> and say, "Yes, dear!"
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