During yesterday's session with Dr. M., we had brought in the I Ching book that had been written in '87. It contained, among other things, about 18,000 real questions that had been going through our brain.
We came across old memories of when life had been very difficult. In '85, we were terribly worried for our son Jacob (1 1/2 years), who had gone through a terrible near death experience, we'd been physically attacked by our then husband, and we'd suffered our first adult nervous breakdown. At the time, a doctor had thought incorrectly that we were to be manic depressive. This kind of misdiagnosis was common of that period.
Yesterday, Dr. M. mentioned something of kinetic energy and emotions, maybe more directly of anger. Since then, our resident physics expert, River Bank, has explained the basic nature of this kind of energy. There hadn't been time in the Dr. M. session, but to have left a good marker. We bless River Bank for not only being so smart, but for being such a dear and wonderful friend.
The point being, with Dr. M. there was much more talk of what our Dear Heart might know and have had experienced. Dr. M. suggested and we'd agreed, that she might be more aware, but had taken a familiar back seat to the parts. The external safeties thought to have been in her life had again collapsed.
We're unsure of who all wrote that book. We don't know whether it was Dear Heart exploring the different parts of herself, or whether it had been the parts becoming better familiar with each other. For now, the important thing is ... that the thoughts and feelings were captured on paper and at present we're better able to explore critical points in our life. There is safety.
Whatever it is that we're going through now, maybe what will remain is a knowledge of how very strong and resourceful we actually are.
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