Recently, we went to visit other muliples' "hang-outs." There are quite a few who journal. We are trying to figure out what brought us to our first real strong feeling of "fear." In responce to this feeling challenged, we wrote:
We went to about 12-14 web pages, but don't have the memory to tell you the names. The things that frightened us weren't necessarily anything wrong in the others' journal entries. It's just that a lot of them had things that would be fearful for our system. This would include things like lack of ambition, constant raging anger or self-destructive ramblings, boredom, lack of cohesiveness or communication between parts, feeling a lot of self pity, or a lot of street smart on a rougher side of town ... this kind of thing.
We're tryin to be more secure in ourselves, but we are yet kind of fragile because we find ourselves often adapting to others. So, we are pretty careful to associate with people who are trying hard to bring themselves forward. We didn't stay long enough in any one site to look more at deeper strengths of any of the other multiples. And, we know we should better try to figure out where some of theses people really are. We figure there is only one real dynamic dual. Either one is learning, or one is teaching.
We actually have an understanding system, but during our personal time, we look for people who we can share positive thoughts, learn and grow from. When we work at our Center we care for individuals in need of support. But, this is more like work. Although, appreciative of work, we just want to relax and progress our minds some. The other multiples have as much rights to present themselves as we do. But, in our free time lives we're always looking for the cream of the crop. There is just so little time for everything. No reason to get bogged and overwhelmed.
We're sorry if we seem closeminded, intolerant, immature, or vain. We mean to be none of these things. It's just that we've got a lot of work to do on our own personal growth(s).
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