We have four parts who we haven't talked much about. Again, they are Anna (2 1/2 years), Gracie (1 1/2 years ), Crystal (8 months), and Mimi (3 months). We know some things about them, but not as much as we need to know. They appear to cluster. Usually, Sarah and or Henry watch over them, but it's through the Casies we gain access.
In our last session, we believe Dear Heart to have experienced each of the youngest parts through rapid de-escalation. We know that the experience was terrifying for her. We can sense her begging to make it stop. Dr. M says Dear Heart is still depressed, anxious, and tense. She seems to have felt Anna's severe pain, Gracie's ridgedness, Crystal's inability to breath, and lastly, Mimi's inability to hold consciousness.
Through time and patience, sexuality, or emotive-like therapy, each of these parts will come out. There was significant work done with these parts in the seven years we were treated by Dr. W. There has been virtually no exposure of these parts in the four years Dr. M. has treated us. Dear Heart's developing trust in Dr. M and ourselves, and her willingness to accept parts seem to be necessary at this stage. There appeared to be much less control in Dr. W.'s time. Maybe this is due to our newer. more adult ability to make choices.
In the past, we have believed Mimi to have been numbed or given to unconsciousness by alcohol given to her while holding the abuser's sexual organs to suckle. We believe that Crystal cries and screams and was choked by ejaculations and in attempts to quiet her. She exhibits seizure like behavior. We believed Gracie to have experienced severe and painful manipulations of her genitals. She hyperventilates, has extreme fear, and paralyzation. We have believed Anna to have withstood a tremendous amount of physical abuse and is autistic like in her rocking, non-ability to play or socialize, and her non-verbalness. In addition, all four suffered neglect and emotional abuse.
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