Annotated Responce to Reading #1 - Multiplicity

Some of us,who have withstood severe and overwhelming trauma, dissociate which then causes a breach in our core part's identity formation and memory.  We sublimate this by being able-minded parts whose primary purpose is to protect our core.

The majority of multiples are traumatized by physical and sexual abuse before the age of four.  Usually, at least one "trusted" family member caused this horrendous internal distress. Oftentimes, there are other strict religious or mystical belief inclinations in the family.

The core personality normally has a good working memory, above average intelligence and creativity. Usually, they are predisposed to love, but have a capacity to dissociate when challenged by overwhelming contradictions. The trauma is normally frequent, unpredictable, inconsistent and severe.

The experience of abuse is personal, interpersonal, and situational. The dissociation is reinforced by the family dynamics and subsequent life experiences. The core personality would be in great peril if not for this ability to dissassociate from the disrupted personal boundaries of self and other, but in return must forgo memory independent of state and mood. 

The traumatized child introjects, internalizes, and identifies with the abuse through imaginary companions who are of more trusted value than the outsiders.  Outward communication is not allowed, so the dissociation becomes further fixed. As the individual matures, pseudo relationships will be avoided at all costs and ideal circumstances sought to reassociate to life. The goal of therapy is to trust conscious and co-consciousness of self(ves) and others' purpose and motivation.

As a multiple, we have found a life albeit dissociated.  Our abusers were my maternal grandfather and mother and they were supported by my maternal grandmother, father, siblings, and one uncle.  They are/were dogmatic Lutherans.  My paternal grandmother provided us with love.  Our traumas witnessed in silence affected all internal and external relationships.

We are not yet able to constructively handle well false relationships.  We are learning to accept ourselves and others through trusting key relationships.  Our safer world is found through the security of reading and writing.