Morning ... morning ... We woke up very early today, but took a slow walk around the J-neighborhood. At this time, both light and birds are up and I can hear from a distance early morning traffic and a plane overhead.
It is at this time of each day, that personal thoughts need to be noted and sorted. Soon it will be time for our visit to Dr. M. We take great appreciation that he most often gives pause to see how we are doing with our journal and the community. Hehe ... a few of you are even known by him. Usually it is like, "You remember, she’s the one who ..."
At one point in time during our meetings with Dr. M., he initiated the term of "validating." The word seems to grow more important with each visit. Not only does he validate that I have a "world" lived out on the computer and at work, he validates our relationship with other parts of ourselves.
We know that either we will get a chance to talk with him today, or the time will be given over to some of us that don’t have as much time out as some of the others and me. We are kind of like standard fare of late. It’s not that we are "taking ourselves down," far from the contrary. We seem to be holding our own in the adult world. Well, a little worry about Saturday’s work effort, but in general, we’re pretty sure he would concur that we just needed some rest and am really doing quite well.
Well, ‘cept our physical health ... umm, maybe that could stand some improvement. Our diet is pretty bad, especially for a diabetic and we had three incidents this week of being hyperglycemic. That usually doesn’t happen. We might have to face the fact that bread, milk shakes and candy bars is not real stable food. And, we also know that there is concern about a particular lump. Still feeling defiant though. I don’t think we’re ready to check that out.
I suppose we might need to validate that the body needs some care too? Why does this bother us so? Feels like it "slows us down" to be giving it time and attention. *Pouting Sigh and heavy eyebrows.* Shoot, shoot ... we’re not handling this as adult parts are we? Feelings are at the level of being passed up in a game of jump rope. Maybe we'll have to face this as an adult? Then let the kids get back to the games ...
7 comments:
ayn - get that lump checked out. that is an official order.
listen, the queen will even cut you a deal - you schedule that visit - and i'll schedule my overdue yearly mammo. so see, if you don't go - then i won't and then you'll feel guilty for me. heh heh heh....
Oh man!
Just wanted to say hello. I am concerned for you about your diabetes incidents. If you want to talk just let me know. I've been there and done that for over twenty years. Also, not happy you have found a lump. Have it looked at by a pro. My regards to you all. Bill.
Unity! Unity---we are behind you all the way
altho there are only like 3 of me.
Thanks for pointing out that i am sweetly New.
oh man! dang. now I guess I have to call tomorrow. i hate mammo's....smish, smash, squash, slam...one day they're gonna go squish....you just mark my words...
in any regard, i am happy you made your appointment. (sorta..)
you big brat.
damn.
:)
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