Hi ... This is probably not going to be a sparkly entry. We want you to know that right up front. We’re feeling pretty down. Though better now then through the day. Most of the day we spent sleeping. Umm, we didn’t go to work today.
I need to be up for a while now, so we figured we’d work things through with our writing.
There were a couple of stop points through the day. We talked to Dr. M. twice and our friend came over to get us out of the house. We had sub-sandwiches at a local park. Both of them seemed to be saying the same kind of thing ... that we need a plan and that both are willing to work with us. The plans that came to our own mind were pretty devastatingly negative. We need to be able to stop that whole line of thinking.
I think the hard part is that we within the system fight over life and death matters. There’s a small minority that get overwhelmed with the whole consequence of being alive. We have to be responsible, to at least call out for help if we feel we cannot be. We have to be that responsible, plus some. We have a regular Dr. M. Appointment tomorrow ... just gotta keep things safe between now and then.
So, enough of all that said ... we need to be working on a healthy plan. We’re hoping that the results of the heart test are in by tomorrow, so we can go through them with Dr. M. Most likely, we are thinking of the worst scenarios. It’s part of the negative thinking. Chances are we are going to have a long time here on Earth, and am going to have to manage to come up with physical safeties. We’re talking of the weight, smoking, cholesterol, and diabetes again. Nothing we can do about the heredity, or arthritis for that matter.
Shoot, shoot ... we’ve been out of it again. It’s like ... our mind get heavy, cloggy, and confused. We close our eyes and sleep overcomes us where ever we are at. Clock says 20 minutes this time. Our mailbox reminder has dragged us awake again.
Shoot, then again ... maybe we need a new approach. Going to go sit on the balcony for a few. Maybe an ice slushy? Ahh, that’s the stuff.
Ok, whatever this plan is going to be ... there will be a nice big ice slushy in the middle of it. Might be the best thinking all day. I can see the word "plan" in my mind, then everything else seems to skirt it. Maybe the first part then will be to plan ice slushies from home and not be buying shakes and store flavored slushies. I think actually, we’ve been talking over this one some during the past week or so. We’d gone that long without, until yesterday. Think we got the milk shake for the wrong reason. Even so ... we’ll leave a loop in there for now that says, one every week or two won’t be too bad ... At least for now until we get a diet worked out.
Maybe a few moments toward that now ... We know we should be getting food from the grocery store and that we can use peapod grocery service so just order it over the computer. But this is going to mean we have to work through washing dishes and having money available, plus cook? I’m terrible with all this. :( Ok, say something positive here ... Umm, we can start small and maybe find something that we don’t have to cook? Shoot, should figure out a diet first so we know what kind of foods we can eat.
I know the low-carb diet can work, because I’ve seen our son on it, but we don’t think its real healthy to be eating all the fats. When it comes down to it ... we’re a calorie counting person. Just the last time, we were eating the same foods over and over ... so we stopped counting, then after a while we were slipping in all kinds of stuff. Maybe this time we’ll have to work with variety?
Ok, couple of hours later now ... and on our way back to bed. We’ve started a plan. We’re going to try using again software and web support called HealthKeeper or Performance Diet. It’s only $30 a year and allows you software that helps track calories and nutrition, and medical stats, and exercise. The support part is on the web. We got to the step where they said we needed a diet-buddy. So we called our friend and he has agreed. *Sigh*
Just one step at a time, right? Feelin tired again... Nitey nite...
5 comments:
((hugs))) so sorry you're feeling down. Very often a good night's sleep can make a big difference in that, and I hope this happens for you.
You know I'd definitely recommend the low-carb diet. If you ever need someone to be obnoxious and go on and on about it... well, I could do it. ;-)
Hoping tomorrow is a better one for you!
Oh, Ayn if we could just give you our love and hopefulness for you the way we feel it,ohmy. Tooooo much sleep? And with diabetes man, watchout with "diets". I finally started feelin some better. Then worse then some better. Like my FAVORITE song, One Step UP, by Bruce Springsteen. Then it says,"Two steps back". Act as if! Do you know about that? Good luck, take care, luv.
etal, sounds like this is going to be a life changing experience! [to the good!]
V
sorry you're having a down day et all....glad you are pondering a few important health matters...i know you will come to a good decision...
sleep well..
You poor sweeties... It is so hard to acknowledge what we know to be the right thing to do but it is hard to make it a go. I am concerned about the others who seem to be taking the hit. I know it is a hard thing to be a multiple and to ask for help when needed. We all like to feel as if we are in control of our destiny.
Major hugs from me to you all - Tammy
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